Why r these reservations in my mind?

I had been reading lot of blogs regularly ,which means that am doing less work.Which is true in fact .Oh I dont wana whine anyways!
One thing I have noticed is people abroad find it easy or they are at ease on what ever they write . But I dont feel so . A cap clouds my brain what should I write ?how should I write ?right worng ?should I put this one etc etc....ooofffo so many reservations for my self.Planning to get out of that and start writing regularly.

Exhausted of doing Nothing!

Its been quite a long time , Life had been litlle tough ,is it so ? I dont know!Things hadnt been going well professionaly.
Am just not being happy with work ,being in the Bench category ,sometimes pulls my nerves to the limit!It sucks yaar coming to office ,and being idle is horrible.And living alone in a aprtment is ooofffo over all am so much pissed off with everything around !Would like to just break out .
Over all am Exhausted,waiting for things to fall in place. How long ?Endless waiting .Same answers from the higher officials Wait for some more time a week ,a month but at the end of a month or a week then comes again the same Gyan!am tired of listning to it.
Being blank without knowing what to do Next???????